Being in Charge of Everything is a Tough Job
I like control.
I like that sense that I have the ability to change things to suit my desires.
I just wish it were true.
Putting Feet on the Ground
Once over the initial shock of confronting a caregiving crisis, the cocky youngster in me decided that this should be easy to whip. Such hubris demands a solid response from the world, and the world did not disappoint in my case.
After a number of knockdowns, the idea that I was not really in charge began to dawn.
I am not sure where in my upbringing this arrogance was instilled, but Real World experiences excel in providing me reasons and opportunities to reassess my assumptions.
Caregiving As Teacher
As I interact and observe behaviors in society these days, I am struck by the emotional flailing of individuals and groups trying to assert that they alone are the authority.
It all starts to sound familiar.
Asserting demands is one thing. Actually having those demands met in the fashion you want is entirely different.
As I learned figuratively picking myself up for the umpteenth time when caring for others, recognizing when and what we control is important. Recognizing when we do not is even more important.
Being humbled is still a part of the human experience.
You can certainly loudly make your demands, stamp your feet, and refuse to move until you get what you want.
You may actually get something for your efforts, but there will be a price. Life is transactional in that to get something, you must give something.
Not everyone likes what they have to give in the transaction.
Choosing Peace
The humility I developed over the course of caregiving experiences, focuses on reducing frustration and anxiety caused by trying to push that proverbial round peg through the square hole.
You have to wonder when life keeps serving up the same frustrating lesson to you that maybe you need to look at yourself as the cause. Just because you want to make the problem “out there” does not make it so.
Choosing acceptance, and learning to be grateful for what you have, are sometimes tough lessons.
Troubled Spirits
Partly from being on the receiving end of some impassioned, though misguided, enmity lately, and partly from watching people and their respective decline in compassion for one another, I see the troubled times in which we live.
As a child, I grew up in the turbulent 1960’s and saw similarly difficult times. I also saw the world slowly regain its composure and sanity.
I have hope that we will do that again.
Restoring balance, that peace of mind and spirit, starts on an individual level. We get to be that agent of change by embracing the opportunity that our life experience is presenting to us.
Finding that all of the frustration we have been feeling has come from learning that we are not in charge of everything after all.
A tough lesson but life is full of them. Time to get a grip.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost