Learning to Be Quiet
Engagement of crisis is a behavioral trait that often defines what it is to be a caregiver. While we may be a collection of insecurities on the inside, we willingly step into uncertain situations. To this day, I am not sure where this intrinsic motivation comes from, but we get things done when a sensible person might just otherwise call it a day.
Essential to these problem-solving activities is our use of language to do what we need to do. Call me being overly sensitive, but idle conversation irritates me. (Probably why I never connected with the “show about nothing” aspect of the TV show “Seinfeld”)
I am stubbornly practical.
In our current day and age of the non sequitur, where conclusions for argument possess no logical connection to the justification, I lose patience. Stringing together unrelated statements can give the speaker an air of knowledge (think: word salad) but what about the rest of us that actually use language to communicate?
Is trying to sound important the same thing as being important?
Huh?
The restlessness of people is remarkable. Meanings in a common language have been sacrificed for public displays of loyalty to groups. When perceived importance is emphasized over communication and understanding one another, I have to cry foul.
Life is too short.
Embracing emotional responses to another’s heredity, politics, or lifestyle choices, instead of nurturing communication, serves no one. As with the word salads, nonsense is just, well, nonsense.
While it is unfortunate that I find that I represent some truly horrible attributes in the eyes of some individuals, unless I have acted in such ways to deserve the disdain, I am just going to have to ignore the characterizations.
Life is too short to engage in imagined actions. If you are angry with others you feel have wronged you in life, you really need to take matters up with them.
Not sorry.
It is All About Ownership
I have weekly conversations with my Mom.
She lives in a facility now and likes to reminisce about old events, as well as grumble about current ones. (The cafeteria food is just horrible for her delicate diet, and my, don’t the neighbors have terrible things to say…)
We do not have the more introspective conversations we once did, but she does enjoy the friendly talk. She does most of the talking, of course, because it is important to her.
Which is not to say I will not challenge her on some topics. Making sure she is safe and not being taken advantage of by others are my largest concerns. Beyond that, she gets to own the results of her own decisions and actions.
A feat easier said than done, I realize, but in a caregiving relationship (even from across the country), respect for communication is paramount. I am quiet when I need to be, and I speak up when I need to communicate.
As so many public conversations have degenerated to shouting matches these days, understanding that our power to not rise to the taunt, to be quiet, is one of our many superpowers.
Use it frequently.
“When war comes, some flee with great alarm while others step forth and quietly seek directions to the battle.”
― Stewart Stafford